You are my pillar of strength. The core to my foundation. I had this feeling within, but never acted upon it. Are you going to betray my trust? Ruin everything I believed. Are you the person that I loved? Have you been lying to me? I don’t know if I should find an answer, or …
Will I?
is life all that it seems? or is there most to life than what im seeing? will i get to graze the heaven on earth one day and sigh with content? or will i continue to be numb and not feel like this is the end? will i open my wounds and let the blood …
lost without you
you don't know how hard its been to write in here. to face my feelings. go back down memory lane. realize the extent of the pain i've caused. i feel so lonely. its a different type of lonely. one where you know you could have been different. been loved. and one where at the same …
There, a fire.
How can I tell someone of the fire burning inside of me? The crackle, burn, and heat of all that surrounds me. They expect me to yield water yet flames enclose me. How can I warn them? I burn them. Blindness all around me. A home in the deep. An echo far away. A call …
drops of silence
down my face, from my eyes, aged and old, rushing to the river beneath, promising neverending gold. they glisten and fall, tell all a story unique to each drop. refusing to stop, moving down my face silently, they race each other. who that wins, will drown her happiness finally.
Lost in the Moment
I'm at a state in my life where confusion is blocking serenity. My serenity. I don't know what I want. What I'm fighting for. What my intentions are and why. It's like I'm in a trance of some sort. Lost in the moment. Letting every moment graze by my skin, willing to catch it but …
Hope
Hope is a deadly thing. It never goes away; keeps you alive but poisons you day by day. There can be no reason to have hope yet it still exists. I, just by existing, am a display of hope in itself. Things have been happening. I haven't been on top of everything. My family is …
The Sun Shines Somewhere
Life passes. People come and go. The misery up and goes. There's more to life than the cage of understanding we've built around it. Things happen for a reason. At the time they desire. It's a different timezone than ours. So appreciate the people who love you in life. Who find good in what you …
Silently
Hurting myself isn't an option.How do I run away from this?What's keeping me alive is also killing me. What kind of tragedy am I in?She who I seek love from, fails to show me that she cares.Actions speak louder than words they say. All that I see is unfair.All I hear is silence. They say …
Irrelevant
Seasons come and go, flowers continue to bloom. Who gives way to rain, when sunshine is prevalent, behind the mountains the skies …
No Name
this was written sometime in late 2018. Life is unfair. Impossible in thought. What we think, how we feel is irrelevant to its growth. I'm hurt. I'm distorted. I don't know where to look. My mind's a mess of jumbled thoughts, how can I tell someone so. It's weird, these feelings inside - they often come and go. But the sadness …
Mercury
I have trouble connecting two and two together. Never ace me in math. My minds a mess, jumbled thoughts. The future sides with Mercury. Close but dim, the tides are high. Emerging from glares, only when there's a why. Perhaps still invisible to the naked eye. Somethings really wrong with me. Growth is perpendicular to …
Pen and Paper
Emile Sandé - Read All About It | Part III | Writing. It's truly a blessing isn't it? I don't remember when I started writing. Or how. But it's been a part of my life since I could remember. Although, I never was fond of keeping a diary (until now) I was always better at …
My Chronic Hair Loss Journey – Telogen Effluvium
Hi, I'm a girl. I have lots of luscious hair. Well, I used to... Telogen Effluvium. In easy words, it's hair loss. But not the normal one. It's abnormal because I'm still under the age of 20 and do not have any other disease devouring me right now. So let's give this thing a nickname …
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Just Lost
I have a big headache. I'm losing my hair. Really. My family is not mine. I don't feel like they love me. I don't feel comfortable in my own body. My dreams look so far away. I don't want to fall again, but I'm falling deeper than before. I'm unsteady; heavy-hearted, wanting to be gone with …
