Evergoing

There is so much to say. Yet, all I see is that I lost someone permanently. I lost someone so beautiful to me. Someone who fulfilled my destiny. I wish people could see through to the real me. Only then they would know not to be friends with me. I cry today because of my …

Hope

Hope is a deadly thing. It never goes away; keeps you alive but poisons you day by day. There can be no reason to have hope yet it still exists. I, just by existing, am a display of hope in itself. Things have been happening. I haven't been on top of everything. My family is …

Mercury

I have trouble connecting two and two together. Never ace me in math. My minds a mess, jumbled thoughts. The future sides with Mercury. Close but dim, the tides are high. Emerging from glares, only when there's a why. Perhaps still invisible to the naked eye. Somethings really wrong with me. Growth is perpendicular to …

Plagued

She lost her way.  She was addicted.  Pain gave her happiness, happiness full of pain. She turned off her light.  The sun fell to the ground.  She burned her hands, gathering the pieces all around.  Clouds made way for rain.  She drowned.  The tide was high.  She was unfathomable.          Originally written: …

Anxiety

When my anxiety kicks in the firstmost thing I notice is my racing heartbeat. It speeds up so dramatically that I have to put a hand to my heart just to help calm it down. Then, the shallow breaths. My breathing slows, then races. It becomes inconsistent. And suffocating. Next, the weakness. I can never …

How

I just need to break down and cry. I'm back on a low. My tears are now fast and heartbeat slow. Deep breaths in and deep breaths out, still I feel suffocation all throughout. It's a sad place to be in, I can't escape. I can't deal with the anxiety, I should leave. Now my …