weird things, weird feelings.
wake up in sweats. bad dreams. something bad is going to happen.
i can feel it. nothings normal in my heart. i’m just trying to understand.
i want everyone to stay away. from me. doubting my ability to receive love.
rethinking all my words. over and over again. until i just decide not to say them.
i’m afraid of everyone. afraid of myself. afraid of circles.
not worthy of anyone. why worry someone else.
i need to go through this alone. i need to live, survive.
i’m just trying to understand. why i am this way.