I feel so alone today. So weak, so guilty.
Its like I failed the test God set out for me. And I can just feel His disappointment.
My mind is swimming with emotions. Many I fail to decipher.
I feel like a bad person.
I feel like nothing is going right. It’s as if all my feelings and thoughts plan to betray me soon.
So anxious. There’s a ceaseless burden behind my eyes. I can never see it, but it’s always alive.
I get mind blanks every day. My memory never coincides. To remember, I always have to put in more effort.
I hate my face.
I fear my future.
originally written July 30, 2018.